Your Tears and Tremblings

"I'm so addicted to feeling guilty."
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_{Why would I ever worship wood or stone?
Things that cannot hear or speak at all}
Why would I want something that I can control?
<sub>When I can't even trust myself to fall

I was following a cloud of fire and smoke
But my heart was too weak to understand
So I built an image with my fear and with my gold</sub>
Now I'm reaching out for Your hand...

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"Am I a hopeless case?
You keep saying the same things
But is it on my face?
That it isn't sinking in...

Like a homeless man tapping on a car window
I f e e l s o d i s c o n n e c t e d.
But I so in need to hear this
Do You still see:

Something there?

I've never been good or brave enough to
Ask the question, If I'm breathing in
Does that mean You still want me?
That You still see:

Something there?

There are lines on my hands
This sky makes any heart beat faster
I'm breathing out and breathing in
I know that You see, I know that You see</sub>

Something there...


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"The orphan clings to Your hand
Singing the song of how he was found
The widow rejoices
For her oppressor's silent now

You sit at the table
With the wounded and the poor
You laugh and share stories
With the thief and the whore

When You could just be silent
And leave us here to die
Still, You sent Your Son for us
You are on our side..."

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"And even when You fill,
You leave me with a beggar's heart."
<sub>Even when I've not kept my promises
You love me, still, the same.


[Lyrics (4 songs) by Bethany Dillon - "Waking Up" CD]</sub>
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How long have I been this way?